I took Jason to therapy this morning. We got there on time and Jason was very tired. We’ve begun switching some meds but he hasn’t seemed that tired till today. I’ll have to keep an eye on that. His ABA therapist said after Jason settles down after eye surgery on the 29th they want to start working on chores. So that will be something to think about. The only chore I can thinking of is wiping up after himself. But we’ll see if I can think of anything else.

My next massage appt is right now. It’s terrible when you get to a place and really don’t want to go in. Some people can drain you. This is one of them. I have my grounding crystal on so I’m hoping I don’t walk away from this appt ready for a nap.

The appt went well!  My client was good, and after I learned a lot about turpenes when mixed with CBD and the affects that we can get for Jason. He has been on CBD for about two years now.  I've seen a big difference for Jason and his progress has improved since being on it.  But if we add different types of turpenes we should be able to regulate different issues he has.  Sleeping, anxiety, focus.  I'm hoping to see the implementation of this soon.

Worked at a client at my office.  It's always fun to talk and share different stories with my clients.  Sometimes I need their time as much as they need mine.

I picked Samantha up from school dropped her off and promised her I would take her driving today.

I picked Jason up from therapy and he had been crying all day.  I'm looking into the cause.  With all his med changes this week I'm not 100% sure what could be causing this.  I'm thinking it's actually a combination of constipation from the depakote and not having his lexapro anymore.  I think we can combat his aggitation and anger with a little more busperone but the depakote I think has to go.  Jason had a rectoplexi after his first round of seziure meds stopped him up so badly.  I can't deal with that again.  The poor kid does not need to be in that kind of pain every again.

I came home with him and he was pretty content for a little while.  I was able to take a nap.  I do love to sleep.  I was quite impressed with my ability to fall asleep within ten minutes of putting my head on the pillow.  I woke up to the end of Support Your Local Sheriff.  Brett was working and watching a fun old western comedy.  I remember watching it, probably with my Grandpa Wilson or my Dad.

I had another appt with a client of mine.  She's a college age girl and it's fun to giggle and chat with this fun girl.  I've worked with both her and her father and both of them have a pretty good sense of humor.

I took Samantha driving......I think I need a valum now.  At one point she said, "I'm slow because I'm blind..."  I told her then she needs to not drive.  She laughed and advised me she was really just nervous.  Boy the next forty hours of driving might do me in.  I had to tell her that when I grab the wheel it is to correct her, not to wrestle control from her.  I had the same problem with Tori.  At one point I told Tori, "When Jesus takes the wheel, let Jesus have the wheel!"   It appears I will be having to tell Samantha the same thing.

One more appointment for the night is always entertaining.  I always feel part of this family and the banter is fabulous.  I might have hurt my darn shoulder again putting my table into the car.  I'm hoping this is not going to slow down my progress in coping with my PTSD.  Amazingly I think that this is going to be very helpful. 

Life goes on

Well, I can’t believe it’s 2019. Duncan’s 19 and engaged to Brittney White. Tori is 18 and is going to college down at Dixie in St. George. Samantha is 15 and is my favorite babysitter and Jason is 11 and is as energetic as ever.

I had to get up early and take Samantha to the DMV to get her learners permit. I of course got a new person at the window so when Samantha couldn’t pass the eye test and her doctors note only said one eye worked she advised me that, “This isn’t going to work.” So I advised her that it will because we have cousins with one eye removed that can drive. She was quite ornery for having been there for only ten minutes. She had to call the “medical desk” to verify that she could drive. If she had let me know that she needed to check the info I wouldn’t have gotten so frustrated but I had to coerce her into getting assistance. Ya....Thankfully Samantha only had to take the test once. She passed and now I get to teach her to drive.

Got Jason to ABA and he was happy and content to be there.

Dropped Samantha off at school five minutes before the bell rang.

Worked at the chiropractor. I started working there’s about two and a half years ago. I do love my job and the satisfaction it is to help others on there journey in health.

Ran home for an hour and took Brett to get a part for Duncan’s car.

Went back to work.

Picked Samantha up from school.

Went back to work.

Came home to find Brett had diner ready. Shared a wonderful meal with my family. Even Jason ate dinner.

Ran and got ice cream for everyone. Neilson’s frozen custard is the best!

Went back to work and took care of one of my own clients.

Came home and went to bed.

Yes this is a list. But I have care givers PTSD and I’m hoping that I can see that I do take care of things. And that I’m not useless. Which is joe I’ve been feeling lately. So the battle has begun!!!